I do this all the time, and it’s realy a form of self sabotage…it doesn’t help that my husband is a total enabler. I honestly question how much he really loves me. I ask him not to bring junk food into the house. I realize now just how addicted I really am. I don’t even realize I am eating it until it’s too late. It’s like I totally zone out. It calls my name until I answer. Well last night he just HAD to make a chocolate pudding pie….you know the one. The delicious graham cracker crust with pudding to fill and cool whip to top. Yep, and nothing fat free, sugar free, or low fat. 
Boo on him. He just didn’t understand what I was so pissed about. I stayed away from it all night last night. I was proud when I went to bed. I woke up in the morning, and knew something happened though. I guess I eat in my sleep. I cut off a big piece and ate it sometime in the middle of the night. Now who the hell does that???? Really! I Effing eat shit food in my SLEEP! Now that’s a problem.
I have no control over myself when it comes to snacks. I pretty much can’t handle a “diet” that tells me I can’t eat something. If I restrict, I crave even more. I do really well on them for a couple weeks then totally fall off. I even did that most recently on the Nuriche LiveTrim plan. It’s a great plan and very effective, but when you eat a bunch of calorie/sugar dense crap when you don’t even know it….it doesn’t work!!
So on to the next plan of action. I am reading Jackie Warner’s book, This is Why You Are Fat (and how to get thin forever). I am not done reading it yet, but I have hopes for this plan. The first two weeks, I don’t restrict my diet….instead I add a few specific items to my meals. The only question I have so far, and haven’t found the answer to is her recommendation on certain supplements. not sure if they are for the entire plan or just the two week jump start. I guess it may be answered later in the book. Her plan is essentially eating clean for 5 days, and giving yourself ONE treat meal on each weekend day. Not a whole treat/cheat day, but just one meal on each of those days. I think I can do this, because that is where I fall off and sabotage myself. Jackie is saying this is OK to do.
Jackie’s philosophy is pretty close to to what I read in The Ultimate You as well. I have to wean myself to cleaner eating. I don’t know if Jackie’s book is totally nutrition, or if she adds workout stuff into it at this point, but The Ultimate You has some basic strength workouts I can start to do from home to help boost my metabolism as well.
I am currently back up to 193.4 pounds. This does NOT make me happy at all. I was down to 184 before my mother in law passed away. I fed off the sadness and depression of the events as they happened. My husband is depressed and in turn it’s making me depressed. Then there’s his addiction to junk food that feeds into my addiction for junk food…..only one of us seems to recognize this though. I am thoroughly disgusted with his doctor for not recognizing or addressing his weight gain with his depression and eating habits. The sugar is adding to the issue. He’s all chemically out of whack!
So that’s the short story version of how I feel lately.
6/6/11 - Starting Weight for PlusSizeBloggers Challenge - 193.8 Pounds
Here’s my beginning weigh in photo. I sure hope not to see that number ever again!!!!
So I need to make a couple goals here to keep me on track.
- I will eat two eggs every morning
- I will eat a bowl of oatmeal every morning (steel cut oats)
- I will start each day with a glass of water with added lemon juice to wake up my metabolism.
- I will add an extra fruit into my diet every day
- I will add at least 2 cups of fresh veggies every day.
- I will drink a minimum of 80 ounces of water every day
I don’t worry about my workouts at this point too much. I’m doing mostly cardio right now, between tennis and trekking class, but I need to build up my heart/lung endurance at this time. I’ll get back to weights and kettlebells in another weeks or so.
So that’s my plan. Tell me I’m not crazy. Tell me that we all go through this crap. Tell me that I am not alone in this…..because I sure as hell feel it. I apologize if I sound erratic…I have so many thoughts run through my head at one time. This is how it is to be me….almost like adult ADHD. If you felt that while reading it, just imagine how I feel with all that running through my head at once!! LOL
Have you read Jackie’s book? If so email me so we can discuss. I would love to hear your thoughts.
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I think you’ll take off that extra right away. I really do. And I am totally the same as you with regard to junk in the house.
You have a great plan. I haven’t read that book, but it sounds interesting.
I’m trying to do all positive goals and not set myself up to rebel and fail. I need these 12 weeks with you all to get me back on track.
Good Luck!!! Let’s enjoy this summer along the way.
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Positive goals and attainable goals are so important! Especially when trying to get out of a funk. That’s why I am only using goals right now to add to my routine rather than restrict right now. If I restrict myself of anything at this point, I will only fail and I recognize that.
12 weeks is a long time for me to focus with this challenge, but I am going to try my damndest!
Good luck to you as well! I’m headed over to check out your blog post.
You have an awesome plan to begin with and i know you’ll be able to stick to it. I totally understand when it comes to the eating part, I overeat on one to many occasions and am trying to overcome it. Hopefully, we’ll both be able to acieve out 15 lb weight loss over the next 12 weeks.
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Thank you and good luck to you as well! 12 weeks is a long time for me to focus, but I am going to give it a go!
*hugs* You are definintely not alone. With men… Sigh. With men, you have to sit them down (sometimes more than once) and tell them what you need and why you need it. I had to do this a couple times with my husband not only for my healthy living efforts but to get through a bad bought of depression. And there can’t be any ‘I thought you would know what I meant’ stuff, either. You have to lay it all on the line clearly – even though it may seem weird to you or the people you are with (I’m thinking padlock on the fridge). That may involve you sitting down and figuring out what you really need, which can be a good exercise in and of itself.
We definitely all go through this. We all have enablers in our lives and life events that throw us off. Remember that stress can cause weight gain, too. I’m with Teresa; I think you’ll take it right back off.
Stress has definitely been a big factor recently! And I totally know what you mean about subtlety and men! I have to flat out tell him that he needs to stop that crap. It’s not helping him AND it’s not helping me either.
Thanks for your encouraging words!
LOVE JACKIE WARNER!! Her book her workouts everything! If you follow her plan you will see results. She has workouts in the end of the book too! We all have ups and downs with dieting, not giving up is the key! Good luck!
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i’ve got it on my Nook app so I haven’t gone to the back of the book yet. I have gotten to her first 2 weeks of power intervals on the treadmill etc, and it’s very much in line with what the trainer does in our trekking class at the gym. So I am on track this first two weeks with her plan of just adding in what she suggests.
Did you/are you following her plan? Are you using all the supplements that she recommends at the beginning? I’ve always thought of those like creatine used for body building. LOL
I don’t do her plan but something kinda close. (I wasn’t willing to give up my yogurt!) I eat very much like she recommends I just allow a few things that have a little more sugar than she suggests. I know if I did though, I would lose even more! I really like her approach. I didn’t catch what supplements she suggests but I don’t take any.
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Just stopping by to wish you luck on this weight loss journey and I am cheering for you. Let’s take this journey together.
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